Monday, October 06, 2008

perspective.

have you ever had those moments of perspective that hit you in the gut or maybe across the face {depending on how stubborn and self focused you are}? well, tonight i had one of those. i jet planed again today to washington and was feeling a little sorry for myself..cuz i'm a bit tired and have a lot going on. i'm behind in my reading for my grad program due to travel and ministry responsibilities. annoyed with my whining?! apparently so was God. as i was trying to read a book i must write a paper on by the end of the week...i got contemplative. it happens quite frequently on planes for me. i've heard people say they love to climb mountains to get closer to God, so when i'm flying i must be really close to God. anyway, i began to see what a difference a year makes. i thought back to my life a year ago...my life is significantly different. its a year next week since Tennyson went home to be with the Lord, i wasn't in school a year ago, and i wasn't responsible for nearly as much in ministry a year ago. i sort of started whining again {via my journal}...you know like lament psalms David would have penned and then all of the sudden i looked up...there he was. a guy probably my age. barely having enough strength to walk to the front of the plane. his body obviously afflicted with the most abominable disease, cancer. he was pale, skinny, and bald but proudly wearing a yellow livestrong bracelet. i felt hit in the gut...perspective. my whining was embarrassing now. i sat in my seat quietly crying and praying for a young man who's name i'll never know...but who left a lasting impression on the girl sitting in 3A.

Song of the Day :: Hillsong//Stronger {dedicated to my new friend from Northwest Flight 1272}

9 comments:

*kk* said...

hey tracy.. thanks for giving me some perspective tonight too.. I'm so proud of you.. it amazes me to see how God is using you to impact so many women within our church and Idaho.. you are an encourager and example of great faith.. your stregth in Christ and wisdom from the word is visible..love ya!

jenn lee said...

thanks for being transparent...this changed my outlook for today. thanks!

.:meagan.rae:. said...

needed this today! It also reminds me of something Kelly said at YP this Saturday; "our ABIDing isn't just for ourselves" gosh i'm grateful for all of God's reminders to me. love ya

JB said...

love you, and your heart..and yes i love when God's helps our perspective with good/sad reality checks. miss u already, but since u said no whining i won't!

Kirsten said...

Love you sissy and love your heart:)

Anonymous said...

AMAZING!!! That is the only word I can think of when I think of you. Thanks for giving us perspective too. AMAZING.....simply AMAZING!

Kristi Jones

Derek said...

I love you like a younger brother. Inspiring. I believe this next year will be yet another year when you can look back and be encouraged from how far you have gone....

Kenziepoo said...

Oh, Trace...What a wonderful post! That is not just perspective but proper perspective. Love you Sissy!!

Megs said...

so true. thanks for sharing that- always good to check our perspective.

hope school is going well. I think I'm going to start that program in January!